For our entire childhoods, my father would make themed 3D cakes on our birthdays. These would be the ultimate homemade expression of food love: not good enough for a cake store, yet so loved, constructed, and amazing.
My brother has been carrying on the tradition for years with his kids. I have a six and three year-old, and I finally got one that captures what dad was doing. Guthrie's third birthday last week got him a locomotive. Just the fact that he recognized it was reward enough for me.
This is before the finishing touches, and the icing - well, that's kind of what it looked like, yes. Steampunk!

Then last night we had friends over and paella. Paella, I hate you! Freaking rice was so damn crunchy, it was like we were eating raw carrot casserole. I sat on my apologies, but it was basically all I could think about. Crunch. Crunch. Crunch.
This morning, I photographed it to show just how ugly it looks to me now. Of course, I will muscle my way through these leftovers, since behind the rice-rocks are some fine flavors. Just imagine eating this, every little grain a crunch festival. Now imagine watching five other people do the same thing. I must have had two bottles of wine, myself, to cope.
Grrrrrr....
I used to be GOOD at cooking. I used to be able to handle several burners at once. Now I feel like an exposed ferret on crystal meth, running around like a maniac, desperately trying to smile, stay suave, and contain my internal freak. It doesn't help that our new kitchen is like a retail display window, nor does it help that, as my friend said last night, 'quit yer bitchin, the party's in the kitchen.' In honor of my own obsessiveness about this horror show of rock candy, I offer John Updike's stupendous example of wit and insight:
Thoughts While Driving Home
Was I clever enough? Was I charming?
Did I make at least one good pun?
Was I disconcerting? Disarming?
Was I wise? Was I wan? Was I fun?Did I answer that girl with white shoulders
Correctly, or should I have said
(Engagingly), "Kierkegaard smolders,
But Eliot's ashes are dead?"And did I, while being a smarty,
Yet some wry reserve slyly keep,
So they murmured, when I'd left the party,
"He's deep. He's deep. He's deep"?




